For a few mornings it has been hard to get going, the tasks at hand seem difficult and i am discouraged about projects and the execution of them. i need to understand that it is not my timing on so many things, that i have to embrace the world i am existing in and that i am not in control. But i feel disappointed and my soul is weary.
Today as i painted at an orphanage the mother of the couple that runs the place died. She was old and very sick, but that does not make it any less real. And i am left feeling defeated. As the voodoo ceremony began i was left feeling like there is more i should be doing... 50 children run around the yard and are in need... but they are just 50 of so many.... today i am overwhelmed and aching.
