You know, i was reminded today and a few times over the past few days that it really is true, ONEBYONE that is. I am so small in a big world. But i serve the All Mighty that is so BIG in a small world. He did create perfection in 6 days, and continues to create perfection all around me. I am again so blessed to be a hands-on part of loving these Haitian people. I have fallen more and more in love with this place everyday. The mountains that surround me on all sides, the lightening that fills the skies tonight, the tiny hands that reach out to lifted into my arms, the cries of beautiful children that i have bonded with, with slow pace, the markets that fill the streets, the ladies selling snacks under a small shack coverings, men that slowly work on the latest construction.
My desire to stop and talk with the faces that meet mine, to be more then just a white face that makes heads turn upon the sight of a foreigner. My desire to be an encourager, a friend, and a neighbor, a local even though i am not a national.
Today i experienced the events of YHWH’s divineness. It started last night with a outside visitor last night, who as it turns out knows many people that i know, and might have a part in my future days in Haiti. OK lets make that clear, i am not speaking of marriage or anything here. JUST actually being a part of planning what i might end up doing here in the fall, and i thought it was tough getting ahold of people while i am in Canada, turns out i was brought right here to the place i love and got to talk in person. Mysterious ways. As my dreams and my life unfolds i am in AWE of the hands that hold it all.
I have been blessed to spend the last 2 weeks getting to know 5 precious children, My oldest just turned 2 in Nov. i think about the 2 yr old that i take care of at home, and how different their lives are. My little Boy in Haiti, Sony know my face when i walk in to the nursery, he wraps his little arms around me as far as he can reach, he rests his head on my shoulder, he giggles as i tickle his adorable little face, neck, arms and feet, he listens to my heart as he falls asleep feeling comfort, safety and love. He has taken a piece of my heart that i am happy to give him forever. I have found a piece to give each of them. My beautiful dainty Jasmin and her big and strong twin brother Jeremy. my active MiKerline, who has grown from a tiny immobile girl just a year ago. now FULL of personality, and expressions. My precious, tiny Blanco who seems to fit perfectly in my arms. I give them each a piece of me. I ache a bit for leaving them, for selfish reasons mostly... i know that they will be cared for, and provided for, and loved. but i am sad i think about it not being me.
I have known peace to say ‘see you later’ in the past, but i struggle for that same peace this time. I am so rich with friendships that have changed me, and who inspire me.
May i be aware, of the lives around me.
Of the people that could enrich me, and influence my life.
Blessed am i to be the current hands and feet. Please i pray, be blessed future hands and feet.
What if there’s a bigger picture
what if I’m missing out
what if there’s a greater purpose
i could be living right now
outside my own little world
so i would break my heart for what breaks yours
give me open hands and open doors
put your light in eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me
i dont want to miss what matters
i want to be reaching out
show me the greater purpose
so i can start living right now
out side my own little world
--matthew west--
Much love, Angela
